Sunday, January 18, 2009

Start of a new week

So friday was a little naughty, ended up not going to the gym and going to the pub instead! Only had 2 low carb beers (I know still not healthy...) and came home, and ended up going to bed at 9 haha.
Saturday we went to westfeild the entire day, from about 12-5. Had a salad for dinner and just relaxed all night with Matt.
Sunday I had a personal training session booked, when I got there at 2 the trainer wasnt there and didnt turn up! How unprofessional is that? The girl at the desk said he must be sick or something - hello? Not good enough? So anyways its booked in for tomorrow at 5:30 with someone else. I worked out anyways, but not for all that long cause I was kinda in a bad mood.
So today I had to get up at 5:30 for an early start at work, it was absolutly crazy and I was literally run off my feet until 1:30, had nothing but a cup of coffee with skim milk and splenda in it until then. So I made a nice big salad with nothing bad in it and fat free dressing, then walked to the gym and worked out for an hour and then came home, did 25 minutes on wii fit, walked back to parramatta and went to a job interview I had.
So thats 80 minutes of walking, not to mention the walking I did while working on my feet all morning, then the wii fit. I was tempted to go back to the gym for a yoga class but I forgot my soapies are back tonight!! haha im sooo excited.
So I got 3 new pairs of yoga pants, a pedometer and some more healthy food supplies. I switched from full fat - to low fat - to skim milk now. Regular sugar to splenda, and trying my absolute hardest to stay away from carbs. So hopefully I can report a better weight loss this week!

Thursday, January 15, 2009

This week

This week has been pretty incredible in terms of exercise. I started a new job on monday (the hours have been pretty slack and ive been finishing around 1:30 :) So ive been going to the gym everyday, walking to and from work which is only 20 minutes each way but all up is 40 minutes so thats good, plus most days walking to and from the gym which is the same distance 20 minutes each way so 40 all up...
So monday just walked to work and back anddid wii fit for about an hour then matt and I went to the gym (he drove) for an hour.
Tuesday walked to and from work and then did wii fit for an hour when I got home, walked to the gym and worked out for an hour after dinner, so thats an hour twenty of walking and an hour at the gym.
Wednesday I walked to work, then to the gym, worked out for 40 minutes then realized that the body balance (yoga, pilates and tai chi) class that ive been wanting to go to but has been cancelled during the holidays was back on at 7:30pm, so I walked home, did an hour of wii fit, had dinner and walked back to the gym for the class and back home. Whoa that was a long exhausting day!
Thursday (today) I so far have walked to work and back, and thats it! Haha I feel a bit lazy now because I only checked into wii fit and didnt do any of the training, but I think yesterday kinda killed me a little and im really sore! We are going to the gym at 8:30 after matt has his dinner. So pretty average day but im just so tired. Tomorrow I have a later start at work so I dont have to get up at 6 and matt and I are doing a boxing class when I get home.
Other than tha this week has been pretty boring! But I have lost 1.5kg's on both wii fit and the scale at the gym, even though they both say I weigh completely different things - Im 1.5kg's less on both of them. Thats not in a week by the way, its in like 3 weeks - so its coming off very slow but at least im doing it healthy by working out and always eating when im hungry, but eating really healthy and drinking heaps of water.
So anyways I will post more soon, when I have more to report!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

This time its for serious

Sooo hello anybody out there reading this!
My name is Carling, im 24 and from Canada - my parents live in California and I moved to Sydney when I was 21. Right now im studying part time, well its considered full time but I only have 2 classes a week which are 2 hours each, so im not sure how that can be considered full time haha.
I have a boyfriend Matt who I lived with, hes a police officer and probably one of the coolest guys you will ever meet. We have no kids or pets, two flatmates (one is a friend from Canada and the other is her boyfriend)
So I started this blog because I find it really helpful to have somewhere to write my thoughts and feelings about what im going through. I also think maybe having it public will make me more accountable if that makes any sense?
Well to paint a picture I am 69cm's tall, and currently weigh 77kg.
This is the biggest I have ever been. I have been exactly this weight once before, but managed to get it off of myself - I found the trick that time was to have a boyfriend of 5 years break up with you for someone else. I can laugh about it now but at the time I was pretty devestated and ended up having a hard time eating for a while, plus losing weight is a great distraction and revenge for when you see your ex out somewhere. I ended up keeping the weight off and remained 70kg for about 4 years. I never really gained more than a kilo or two, and never did anything special to keep it off just ate normally - some days like a pig and some days not so much.
I ended up going back home to Canada/America in april so about 10 months ago, was there for 2 months renewing my visa and came back in may. After I came back on a student visa ive been having a very very hard time financially. I have been finding it almost impossible to pay my uni fee's while having a roof over my head and eating at the same time - let alone have anything left over to socialize or buy anything for myself. Luckily I have a fantastic boyfriend whos been letting me pretty much sponge off him since coming back and supporting me through everything. I ended up living with him and his parents for about 4 months as soon as I came back, until we got everything together and moved out into our own place. During that whole time because they live so far out I wasnt able to work, I still applied for heaps of jobs and didnt get a single offer the whole time. So anyways we moved and I started working heaps at a restaurant and by that time I had already gained about 4kg. After working at the restaurant for a couple months I gained another 3kg and now im back at 77 which is the biggest ive ever been - yet again. My goal this time is not to go back down to 70, because at that weight I always felt chubby and self concious too - not as bad as I feel now but still I wasnt happy. So this time I want to get down to 63kg's, I dont think I have been this weight since year 10 in high school, but again I was never skinny so I dont see why it would look skinny now as I havent changed in height...
Ive since quit that job and was without work for a couple months again (while handing out sometimes 40 resumes a day - no calls back) I tell you the student visa is a bad situation to get yourself into! Unless your parents have told you they would support you the entire time, or you happened to save about $10,000 before coming back, or were lucky enough to find a job where they didnt rape you (not literally) every shift you have - you probably wont make it by yourself living here...
So anyways the moral of this story is that I have been soo stressed and bored not working that I managed to pack on some kilos, which really only ends up making you feel worse and gives you more to stress out about.
2 weeks ago today I decided I was absolutly sick of this. Ive been going to the gym 5 days a week, eating well, being generally concious about what I put into my mouth and doing physical activity whenever possible - and im feeling better. So far for some reason I have lost 0 kg's, which for me is a bit odd because generally I can lose it quite quickly, but obviously metabolisms change and I havent really tried to lose weight in a couple years so perhaps its going to be a lot harder this time around...
This time I have decided I dont care how long it takes. I figure if I give up now - in 3 months I could be 3kg's more than I am now, even more miserable than I already am, and have 3 more kg's to lose when I did finally get off my ass and decide to do it. So if in 3 months if im only 3 kg's down, at least its going in the right direction and I will be working towards something rather than burying myself deeper in this hole.
FINALLY on thursday I got a job too, so that is fantastic news and I can stop stressing now. I can get into a routine and just be able to relax.
Ive been managing cafes for about 4 years now, and im not one of thos people who does it because they love it. I did like it the first year or so, the second 2 I did it because I was on a work sponsorship visa and had to, but I hated it so much that I went back home and came back on a student visa so I could have the flexibility to pick my own job - No such luck. Ive put out resumes to every store in the westfeild by our house, every data entry/call center/admin job on seek, every tourism job, anything related to anything in retail and have not had a SINGLE phone call - after months on end of that it can be pretty deflating to your confidence. Espically when im 24 years old and cant get a shitty mall job and you give your resume to a 14 year old behind the counter who somehow got the job you cant get. I blame it on this visa (which only allows you to work 20 hours a week) but still at the end of the day it doesnt make it any easier to swallow or make the bills come in any less quickly. But anyways I got a cafe job yet again, and start tomorrow - im excited because I get weekends off (were actually closed on the weekends) and we close at 3. So I will actually have a life this time around while still be able to have a pay cheque and work normal trading hours!!!
So anyways im feeling so much better this weekend and happy to get back to the real world, its the perfect time too because all my friends are going back to work after the holidays and its the new year and a fresh page in my life.